‘Because I Knew You’: OHSU pediatric physician’s memoir reveals how treating kids helped him heal

‘Because I Knew You’: OHSU pediatric physician’s memoir reveals how treating kids helped him heal
Oregon Public Broadcasting (OPB), Portland, OR; by Geoff Norcross, with Robert Macauley; 6/10/25 
About 200 pages into Robert Macauley’s memoir, he takes up the big question of why God — if there is one — allows kids to suffer and die. “The best answer I’ve come up with — with three graduate degrees in theology from places like Oxford and Yale, followed by three decades as a physician-priest—is…” The next two pages are blank. This is what he writes next. “In other words, I don’t know. I don’t know why God lets such terrible things happen, which even someone as tragically flawed as me would make absolutely sure to prevent, given a pinch of omnipotence and a nanosecond to act.” Macauley deals with dying kids for a living. He’s a pediatrician at OHSU, and one of the few in the country certified in hospice and palliative care. He’s also an ordained Episcopal priest. His new memoir is called “Because I Knew You: How Some Remarkable Sick Kids Healed A Doctor’s Soul.” He spoke with OPB’s “All Things Considered” host Geoff Norcross.